Tag: fear

Who exactly is J. Peters?

Many people ask me, Max: Who is J. Peters? For a long time now I felt strangely about using my given name, Max E. Guttman under publications. I’ve felt even more strongly about this concerning publications surrounding the events that unfolded at “New London”…

University on Watch: Crisis in the Academy

After University on Watch: Crisis in the Academy was first published, I felt extremely uneasy publicizing it. Oh, sure, I felt the book was well written, and captured the message I intended to pass on to the public. And yet, that feeling of uneasiness…

The Prosumer Technocrat🔢🔀

I’m am very much public about my status as a prosumer in the mental health community. I’ve outed myself time and again. People ask me about my book series all the time, which is also very much congruent with my prosumer identity: “Max, what…

Lost Chapter of University on Watch “The Dying Man”

After moving into my new home, I truly wanted to make it place of self-care, joy, and peace. Things went so poorly where I had previously resided, that I didn’t want to take anymore chances with my living environment. Shortly after moving in, I…

The Fear of Relapsing when you have a Mental Health disorder😱

When you carry a mental health diagnosis, you are in almost constant fear of relapsing. Whether you have a chronic long standing condition, or are suffering from a new diagnosis, the fear of symptoms re-activating, or worsening, is real problem for those of us…

Continuing Education 🔄

I was asked to write down three things I cannot live without on a piece of scrap paper for a seminar on interpretation. At that time, I was floridly psychotic, self-referential, tangential, and totally detached from what was happening to me, around me, and…

Open Letter to Search for Change (Mental Health Housing): SPOA service, and DCMH

Today I received a certified letter from my apartment building’s management company stating there is noise emanating from my studio during the day and late night hours. Without question, my neighbors directly underneath my studio contacted the management company and lodged a complaint. These…

The Strategist🎱

There is very little myself or anyone knows about the life or even whereabouts of Dr. H today. I can only speak for ten years ago. And very little information, even from back then, explains how Dr. H became so involved in my life,…

The Criminalization🚨of Mental Illness

There are a lot of articles out there all over the internet, newspapers, and mental health forums talking about the increasing violence in the community stemming from inadequate mental health awareness, access to treatment, and laws surrounding forced treatment. Even more abundant is writing…

Respecting the Boundaries of Others

Everyone has a personal set of boundaries. These are the personal and professional invisible rules associated with how we decide to rule our interpersonal lives. There is no question that the more clear these boundaries are to others the more successful we will be…

A Story of First Episode Psychosis: From Symptom Activation to Hospitalization

Symptom Activation Crossing into Broome County New York my vehicle was immediately pulled over by a state trooper. The trooper insisted that a car was weaving in and out of traffic in the vicinity I was driving. While he issued me no ticket, he…

Preventing, Predicting, & Dismantling Problems Ahead: The Early Warning System

The worst thing in the world is to have had the opportunity to fix or resolve a problem and to sit on one’s hands or let the chance pass us by without taking action. While some issues take us by surprise, e.g. breakthrough symptoms,…

A Story of First Episode Psychosis: From Symptom Activation to Hospitalization

Symptom Activation Crossing into Broome County New York my vehicle was immediately pulled over by a state trooper. The trooper insisted that a car was weaving in and out of traffic in the vicinity I was driving. While he issued me no ticket, he…

Chronic Illness & Recovery: Setting the Pace for Sustainable Healing

For people with a chronic illness and long standing mental health diagnosis finding the right pace for recovery & healing can be difficult and even misleading at times during the life of a disorder. Acute disorders provide people with the space and room for…

Psychiatric Advanced Directives

I believe in healing & I believe in recovery. After surviving so many tragic circumstances and injuries, I fully understand how fragile life is and why we must protect ourselves from both seen and unforeseen events which put our health and safety in jeopardy….

Selfless Living

”soliciting my grandmother for money for a project and then, when she told my mother, I denied the event, blaming her misunderstanding of my behavior on her dementia…’ I’ve lived a rich & privileged life. In my youth I was resistant and disagreeable, at…

Disrupting the Cycle of Anger & Explosive Behavior

I can never figure out why people choose to be angry. It is a choice. As a therapist, I diagnose people with Intermittent Explosive disorder from the DSM 5. I also provide treatment for the person carrying the diagnosis, help in terms of psychoeducation…

Psychotic Break Survival Skill Kit: Moderate Impairment

Psychosis has a pattern and habit of evolving into something more elaborate and complex to unravel and make sense of for the person experiencing the symptom. As your psychosis worsens or levels off as a fixed delusional system as a more manageable impairment you…