Category: Experience in Mental Health

University on Watch: Crisis in the Academy

After University on Watch: Crisis in the Academy was first published, I felt extremely uneasy publicizing it. Oh, sure, I felt the book was well written, and captured the message I intended to pass on to the public. And yet, that feeling of uneasiness…

The Revisionist✍️: Rise of the Prosumer (Chapters 1&2)

By J. Peters Preface The Revisionist describes events I experienced beginning in 2008, the year that I graduated from college at New England University. However, the actual writing began shortly after the completion of Small Fingernails Even Less Love, which chronicles the impact of…

A Fond Farewell to Mary✌️

The pictures posted are from a secretly videotaped meeting with my care manager and his director at a non-profit agency in Westchester NY. For three months, I have been calling and trying to reach my care manager. I left message after message for weeks…

Decriminalizing Mental Illness👿

This article was originally published in NAMI’s the Advocate Spring 2019

Interview with J. Peters: Small Fingernails Even Less Love

Interviewer: I am here with J. Peters, author of University on Watch and Small Fingernails. Mr. Peters, can you say something about the difference between these two books? J. Peters: These two books couldnt be more different, and yet, in the end, they are…

Lost Chapter of University on Watch “The Dying Man”

After moving into my new home, I truly wanted to make it place of self-care, joy, and peace. Things went so poorly where I had previously resided, that I didn’t want to take anymore chances with my living environment. Shortly after moving in, I…

New “Lost Chapter” Chapter of University on Watch: Register Co-sign Arrest

Handcuffed in front of my house, with broken glass from my car all over the place, I knew I had entered into a whole new phase of contesting admission. This new phase would not only take all my strength, but new mental powers which…

What keeps me pushing forward?

I am field instructor for graduate and undergraduate student in social work going for their bachelors and masters degrees. I am also a professor of social work in a university. As a field instructor, I am the point person in the field where social…

The Revisionist✍️

Far too many stories and firsthand accounts of recovery are terminal and end with a cure or picturesque life for the consumer of services or “sick” person. This recovery narrative is different. This is a story about struggle, ongoing collateral pushback from friends, and…

Small Fingernails, Even Less Love💕

Sometimes, love finds us; other times, love is a trauma that hurls itself into the very fabric of our lives. My experiences at New London University explain how traumatic events and life’s unfortunate turns can become amplified and overshadow our understanding of how love…

The Trilogy 📚3️⃣

The time is upon us! I need to address the ongoing rumors circulating around my writing. Ever since I have announced a second novella, Small Fingernails, Even Less Love 💕 , there has been undeniable chatter in the literary world. Upon hearing the new…

I am J. Peters and this is my story: University on Watch👁

I am a rhetoric scholar and a person with lived experience with schizophrenia. I am also a prosumer. My identity aside, the status of Disability studies and narratives, memoirs, and stories that aim to reclaim the writers lost authorial voice are in demand. These…

Continuing Education 🔄

I was asked to write down three things I cannot live without on a piece of scrap paper for a seminar on interpretation. At that time, I was floridly psychotic, self-referential, tangential, and totally detached from what was happening to me, around me, and…

Open Letter to Search for Change (Mental Health Housing): SPOA service, and DCMH

Today I received a certified letter from my apartment building’s management company stating there is noise emanating from my studio during the day and late night hours. Without question, my neighbors directly underneath my studio contacted the management company and lodged a complaint. These…

Celebrating Support and Services for People with Disabilities (SSD)🎗

At the very end of my semester in undergraduate school, I attended a reception on campus in which I participated in honoring faculty that was special with and dedicated to people with disabilities. In my entire time as a student, I had never had…

University on Watch👀: Mental health, Concerns, and Hygiene

Sometimes, school crises erupt on college campus’s unexpectedly. Other times, there is a slow build up of tension before the crescendo. The crescendo can be violence, hate speech, or any number of plausible incidents that can manifest on a college campus. Ten years ago…

The Strategist🎱

There is very little myself or anyone knows about the life or even whereabouts of Dr. H today. I can only speak for ten years ago. And very little information, even from back then, explains how Dr. H became so involved in my life,…

That day I lost my car in Atlantic City (NJ)

I needed a break from studying, a nightmarish winter session, and not enough sleep. The plan was to meet my friends for a weekend of fun and excitement away from it all in Atlantic City New Jersey. We had all been there before. There…

Locust lane Park🌳

At one point in the activation of my symptoms, particularly mania, I began driving endlessly and purposelessly, without general course or direction. Towards the more intense manic episodes, I would drive to self- soothe and unwind after spending 15 hour days on campus, in…

The Day I lost my Home🗯

This was to be the first semester of my graduate education in English. I had just completed 19 winter session credits across five universities in New York State. After this last semester with my friends still students at Binghamton, i would enter into a…

Rejected and/or “kicked-out” of Treatment: Untimely discharges and subpar linkages🔄

Finding the right treatment fit can be difficult. Not only are therapists important to try-on, so are facilities, programs, and treatment centers. This article evolves out of my experience in St. Vincent’s Hospital in Harrison, New York. St. Vincent’s was my treatment center for…

Common Egregiously Misused🚫 Terms in Mental Health⚠️

Without question, all of us involved with the mental health system, treatment, peer advocacy, and those with a vested interest in the health and wellness of our friends use language to talk about, explain, articulate, or just commensurate about subjects involving mental health, health,…

Addressing Symptoms: Stilted Language, Perseveration, Word Salad

Anyone who knows me personally or professionally is aware of my love of language. As a person diagnosed with schizophrenia and a lover of language, the road to recovery and symptom stabilization has been difficult and frustrating. Schizophrenia impacts the speech centers and hemispheres…

The Fear of Self-Disclosure🗣

We all talk about ourselves to other people in our lives. We talk about the day-to-day bullshit, the victories, however small, the good, the bad; all of it. As a therapist, peer, disability rights advocate, and just plain people person, I love talking to…

The Myth of High Functioning📊

I hear it all the time working in Mental Health and also as a person carrying a diagnosis. It’s a term that is both misused and overused, infantilizing, and laden with ableism. The expression I am talking about is “high-functioning”. Clinicians use it to…