Tag: schizophrenia

Lost Chapter of UOW: Bombs over New England University

The next step in Contesting Admission seemed rather obvious to me. Pummel the English Department into submission. In the words of President George W. Bush, this will be “shock and awe”. The plan was to bombard the department with paperwork over all kinds, inundating…

Who exactly is J. Peters?

Many people ask me, Max: Who is J. Peters? For a long time now I felt strangely about using my given name, Max E. Guttman under publications. I’ve felt even more strongly about this concerning publications surrounding the events that unfolded at “New London”…

University on Watch: Crisis in the Academy

After University on Watch: Crisis in the Academy was first published, I felt extremely uneasy publicizing it. Oh, sure, I felt the book was well written, and captured the message I intended to pass on to the public. And yet, that feeling of uneasiness…

This is the Ending I Always Wanted to Write for University on Watch

The dew on campus was moist with retribution. Or so it felt when Jacques Peters kneeled on on the grass and felt the wetness between his fingers. “It’s over, I’ve won” Jacques whispered to himself, as his eyes lay fixed on the bottom of…

Decriminalizing Mental Illness👿

This article was originally published in NAMI’s the Advocate Spring 2019

The Revisionist: rise of the prosumer, axioms, and future directions in Mental Health Affairs

When I first began writing about mental health, and topics concerning my own experience with schizophrenia, I was a bit naive. I thought since I lived through “this”, meaning, the various incidents, challenges, and pitfalls of my disorder people who struggled with similar hazards…

Mentally Ill in the Catskills of New York😇

I have traveled all over the world. Before, after, and during my most psychotic episodes, I have been privileged in the realm of touring, travel and seeing the world at large. After I attempted suicide in high school, my parents took me on a…

New “Lost Chapter” Chapter of University on Watch: Register Co-sign Arrest

Handcuffed in front of my house, with broken glass from my car all over the place, I knew I had entered into a whole new phase of contesting admission. This new phase would not only take all my strength, but new mental powers which…

My Ferret Clausewitz and my last pet in Binghamton

My last pet in Binghamton was a ferret named Clausewitz. While I often don’t speak of Clausewitz openly anymore, I feel it is time to reflect on his memory. During the past few years, and after re-entering the social world and bridging new connections,…

I am J. Peters and this is my story: University on Watch👁

I am a rhetoric scholar and a person with lived experience with schizophrenia. I am also a prosumer. My identity aside, the status of Disability studies and narratives, memoirs, and stories that aim to reclaim the writers lost authorial voice are in demand. These…

Continuing Education 🔄

I was asked to write down three things I cannot live without on a piece of scrap paper for a seminar on interpretation. At that time, I was floridly psychotic, self-referential, tangential, and totally detached from what was happening to me, around me, and…

The Evil Therapist👹

The ethics of the helping profession and helping professionals are constantly under the radar. Help seekers, colleagues, and other professions in vastly different fields continue to question the ethics, values, and intentions of therapists and other helping professionals. I understand this suspicion aimed directly…

Mortality-rates in Health & Medicine: Justifying Unnecessary Mental Health Interventions

There is no question people with a severe mental health diagnosis die on average of 15-20 years younger than the general populations. Studies continue to evidence further data suggesting the mortality gap is due to higher co-morbities with psychical diseases on account of unhealthy…

Celebrating Support and Services for People with Disabilities (SSD)🎗

At the very end of my semester in undergraduate school, I attended a reception on campus in which I participated in honoring faculty that was special with and dedicated to people with disabilities. In my entire time as a student, I had never had…

The Changing of Signs🔮

I have said before that there is no universal way or signified to capturing or expressing in words the experience of psychosis. I might have been wrong about this claim. All of this depends on your definition of capture, and experience, to really inquire…

The Mystique of Psychosis

Psychosis is experienced by people carrying its active constellation of corresponding and altogether unique symptoms differently. At different times, along a spectrum, psychosis symptoms exist in a dark harmony, sometimes feeding off one another, and sometimes, working in complete isolation. The spectrum intensifies in…

Addressing Symptoms: Extended Metaphors, Ideas-of-Reference

I was an English major in college. Like many students studying language, I loved words, meaning-making, and using rhetoric to both dazzle and re-orient my listener to whatever I was spitting out of my mouth. Indeed, like most students, and English majors, I loved…

The Criminalization🚨of Mental Illness

There are a lot of articles out there all over the internet, newspapers, and mental health forums talking about the increasing violence in the community stemming from inadequate mental health awareness, access to treatment, and laws surrounding forced treatment. Even more abundant is writing…

Addressing Symptoms: Stilted Language, Perseveration, Word Salad

Anyone who knows me personally or professionally is aware of my love of language. As a person diagnosed with schizophrenia and a lover of language, the road to recovery and symptom stabilization has been difficult and frustrating. Schizophrenia impacts the speech centers and hemispheres…

A Story of First Episode Psychosis: From Symptom Activation to Hospitalization

Symptom Activation Crossing into Broome County New York my vehicle was immediately pulled over by a state trooper. The trooper insisted that a car was weaving in and out of traffic in the vicinity I was driving. While he issued me no ticket, he…

A Story of First Episode Psychosis: From Symptom Activation to Hospitalization

Symptom Activation Crossing into Broome County New York my vehicle was immediately pulled over by a state trooper. The trooper insisted that a car was weaving in and out of traffic in the vicinity I was driving. While he issued me no ticket, he…

Psychotic Break Survival Skill Kit: Moderate Impairment

Psychosis has a pattern and habit of evolving into something more elaborate and complex to unravel and make sense of for the person experiencing the symptom. As your psychosis worsens or levels off as a fixed delusional system as a more manageable impairment you…